Archive for May 9, 2008

Getting Prepared

So if you think I’m going nuts and keep oscillating between crazy Christine, who is sure that the world is out to get her, to not-so-mental Christine… Just pick up the phone or drop me an email and tell me to stop whatever it is that I’m doing and Just go pray. Because I’ve realized that God has an answer for every one of my insecurities. I dont need to be worried. I don’t know why I didnt think of this earlier. Maybe I did and I just thought it was optimistic Christine talking. I don’t like optimistic Christine sometimes. She takes the joy out of being depressed.

Ahh.. But God has the answer to EVERYTHING! And the way he talks..

When I’m wrong about something I usually never pray because I know he’s going to tell me to go back and apologoze or whatever it is that I’m supposed to be doing. But the thing about God.. He waits until he knows I’m ready to be corrected. He waits. And thats just beautiful. He doesnt preach to me! I don’t know if I’m the only one. But thats how He deals with me and I love it! You don’t even realise that you’re being corrected!

So here I am,as weak as could be, looking up to a God who has the strength and the power I need, preparing to face new challenges and overcome new mountains!



freaking out

I’m looking at random photographs of friends who have moved out of India to study or work or whatever. All of a sudden crazy Christine took over. And this whole.. what if I dont find friends, what if I dont find the right church, What if I dont find a way to serve, What if I’m not a good student… All this is just so scary. I can’t handle change well !!
Why do I have to leave??! There are so many people who would love to get out of the country and start new somewhere. NOT me! I like this. I’m comfortable. I don’t like Change !!!!

The last few days I’ve been getting these pictures of my cupboard looking empty. My bookshelf wont have any of my books anymore.

blogging is not helping right now.