Archive for May, 2008


Its Me again!

So my blog’s been dead for a while. I just had to face a huge internet bill and so I made choice to stay offline for as long as possible. Its difficult at times. But I manage.

What have I been up to?? Well, turns out Visa work is not a month long process.. takes longer than that apparently. First, my parents drove me nuts because my passport took almost a month before they returned it to me (I was told that it would only take about 5-10 days!!) And then we found out that I have to go to Delhi for the visa interview. Thats this coming Tuesday.. *I am so excited about that* But my Mom went nuts thinking about where we would stay and how expensive hotels were turning out to be and then she would spend all day worrying about the tickets.I didn’t want to book tickets until we were sure how long we would be staying and where we would spend the night and how expensive the whole deal would be. We got all that figured out thanks to Aridhi! *Sends big hug* But now.. Dad calls worried because Delhi isn’t very safe especially with the news of the crazy riots.

That’s when I got mad.. It irritates me that people can say that God will take care of everything and yet add a “but” to the end of the sentence. WHY must there be a “But” at all?!

I’m not super-holy or always charged with faith. And that’s why when people around me who are supposed to be my mentors get worried and fearful it upsets me. Because they are the people I will become. Don’t they get it? They should be imparting Faith… not Fear under the guise of Caution.

I go through fear and insecurity every single day. And when I talk to family/friends and they sound just like me.. it scares me all the more.

What I need most right now.. Is to be sure that God really is in charge. And that means that if he wants me going to this new country and be a blessing there.. He will make sure I get there.

So I don’t care anymore. My surroundings, the people around me, the news reports of Delhi riots.. I DO NOT CARE.

Because I have a GREAT BIG GOD who really has got the whole world in His Hands.

Assured,
Enit

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GOD became Man..

GOD became Man. While the creatures on earth walked unaware, Divinity arrived. Heaven opened herself and placed her most Precious One in a human womb.

The Omnipotent, in one instant made Himself breakable. He who had been Spirit became pierceable. He who was larger than the Universe became an embryo. He who sustains the world with a word chose to dependent upon the nourishment of a young girl.

God was given eyebrows, elbows, two kidneys… God came near. He came, not as a flash of light or as an unapproachable conqueror but as one whose first cries were heard by a peasant girl and a sleepy carpenter. The hands that first held him were unmanicured, hard and dirty. No silk, no hype, no party.

Were it not for the shepherds, there would have been no reception. And were it not for a group of star gazers, there would have been no gifts.

Angels watched as Mary changed God’s diaper. The universe watched with wonder as the Almighty learned to walk. Children played in the street with him. And had the synagogue leader in Nazareth known who was listening to his sermons…

Jesus may have had pimples. Perhaps a girl down the street had a crush on him or vice-versa. It could be that his knees were bony. One thing for sure, He was while completely divine, completely human.

For 33 years He would feel everything you and I have ever felt. He felt weak. He grew weary. He was afraid of failure. He was susceptible to wooing women. He burped and had body odor. His feelings got hurt. His feet got tired.

To think of Jesus in such a way may seem almost irreverent. Its not something we like to do. Its uncomfortable. It is much easier to keep the humanity out of the incarnation. Pretend He never snorted or blew His nose or hit His thumb with a hammer.

There is something about keeping Him divine that keeps Him distant, packaged, and predictable.
But don’t do it. For heaven’s sake, don’t.

Let him be as human as He intended to be. Let Him into the mire and the muck of our world. For only if we let Him in, can he pull us out.

In one moment… the most remarkable moment the Word became flesh.

Heb. 4:15- For we don’t have a High Priest who is unable to sympathize with our weaknesses, but we have one who had been tempted in every way, just as we are- yet was without sin.

They shared this with us at the youth camp. It really broke something in me. Suddenly God wasnt so unapproachable anymore.  He was just like me.  Gave me hope.

The youth camp is over and we’re all back home.

It was everything I wanted it to be. I wanted this one to be special because I felt like somehow it might be last one in this church… *at least for a while* And leading 170 youth in worship was just so fulfilling. Watching them praise God and worship Him… It was moving for me. I watched them weep, I watched them pray.
I watched and prayed knowing that there is a chance that I might never see this again. My heart was so broken and for the first time I found myself praying for them instead of praying for me.

The worship team did so well. I’m so proud of all of them. They made leading so much more easier for Diana and me. And in Worship was that first explosion from God which lasted for over 2 hours.. I cannot forget what happened at this camp.

Today, at my cell group meeting, all of the people who were at the camp had something to share. One girl said that she actually danced and laughed for the first time in 6 months. Another one said that she felt God loved her for the first time. Someone else shared of the freedom she experienced after giving her life to Jesus. 10 and 11 year olds went home so excited because God had touched them.
Lives changed forever.

History Makers are born. Are you ready for them?

Dedicated to my Mom…

THINGS ONLY A MOM CAN TEACH

My Mother taught me about ANTICIPATION:
“Just wait until your father gets home.”

My Mother taught me about RECEIVING:.
“You are going to get it when we get home!”

My Mother taught me to MEET A CHALLENGE:
“What were you thinking? Answer me when I talk to you…Don’t talk back to me!”

My Mother taught me LOGIC:
“Because I said so, that’s why.”
&
“If you fall out of that swing and break your neck, you’re not going to the store with me.”

My Mother taught me MEDICAL SCIENCE:
“If you don’t stop crossing your eyes, they are going to freeze that way.”

My Mother taught me to THINK AHEAD:
“If you don’t pass your spelling test, you’ll never get a good job.”

My Mother taught me ESP:
“Put your sweater on; don’t you think I know when you’re cold?”

My Mother taught me HUMOR:
“When that lawn mower cuts off your toes, don’t come running to me.”

My Mother taught me how to BECOME AN ADULT:
“If you don’t eat your vegetables, you’ll never grow up.”

My Mother taught me about SEX:
“How do you think you got here?”

My Mother taught me about GENETICS:
“You’re just like your father.”

My Mother taught me about my ROOTS:
“Do you think you were born in a barn?”

My Mother taught me about WISDOM OF AGE:
“When you get to be my age, you will understand.”

My Mother taught me about JUSTICE:
“One day you’ll have kids, and I hope they turn out just like you. Then you’ll see what it’s like.”

My mother taught me about TIME TRAVEL:
“If you don’t straighten up, I’m going to knock you into the middle of next week!”

My mother taught me FORESIGHT:
“Make sure you wear clean underwear, in case you’re in an accident.”

My mother taught me IRONY:
“Keep crying and I’ll *give* you something to cry about.”

My mother taught me about the science of OSMOSIS:
“Shut your mouth and eat your supper!”

My mother taught me about CONTORTIONISM:
“Will you *look* at the dirt on the back of your neck!”

My mother taught me about STAMINA:
“You’ll sit there until all that spinach is finished.”

My mother taught me about WEATHER:
“It looks as if a tornado swept through your room.”

My mother taught me how to solve PHYSICS PROBLEMS:
“If I yelled because I saw a meteor coming toward you, would you listen then?”

My mother taught me about HYPOCRISY:
“If I’ve told you once, I’ve told you a million times: Don’t Exaggerate!!!”

My mother taught me THE CIRCLE OF LIFE:
“I brought you into this world, and I can take you out.”

My mother taught me about BEHAVIOR MODIFICATION:
“Stop acting like your father!”

My mother taught me about ENVY:
“There are millions of less fortunate children in this world who don’t have wonderful parents like you do!”

Getting Prepared

So if you think I’m going nuts and keep oscillating between crazy Christine, who is sure that the world is out to get her, to not-so-mental Christine… Just pick up the phone or drop me an email and tell me to stop whatever it is that I’m doing and Just go pray. Because I’ve realized that God has an answer for every one of my insecurities. I dont need to be worried. I don’t know why I didnt think of this earlier. Maybe I did and I just thought it was optimistic Christine talking. I don’t like optimistic Christine sometimes. She takes the joy out of being depressed.

Ahh.. But God has the answer to EVERYTHING! And the way he talks..

When I’m wrong about something I usually never pray because I know he’s going to tell me to go back and apologoze or whatever it is that I’m supposed to be doing. But the thing about God.. He waits until he knows I’m ready to be corrected. He waits. And thats just beautiful. He doesnt preach to me! I don’t know if I’m the only one. But thats how He deals with me and I love it! You don’t even realise that you’re being corrected!

So here I am,as weak as could be, looking up to a God who has the strength and the power I need, preparing to face new challenges and overcome new mountains!

-Enit

freaking out

I’m looking at random photographs of friends who have moved out of India to study or work or whatever. All of a sudden crazy Christine took over. And this whole.. what if I dont find friends, what if I dont find the right church, What if I dont find a way to serve, What if I’m not a good student… All this is just so scary. I can’t handle change well !!
Why do I have to leave??! There are so many people who would love to get out of the country and start new somewhere. NOT me! I like this. I’m comfortable. I don’t like Change !!!!

The last few days I’ve been getting these pictures of my cupboard looking empty. My bookshelf wont have any of my books anymore.

blogging is not helping right now.

The Future?

So we were at the mall and Oscar thought that instead of wasting time we should distribute tracts. I for one had absolutely no faith or courage or anything but i did point out people to Oscar.Thats one thing I appreciate about the guy. He has no qualms about going up to someone and sharing the Gospel with them. Me.. well, totally different story. I could find out a million reasons why I shouldn’t and what the consequences will be etc etc.
Anyway, the funniest incident. we stop at this shop where I had left a book to be photocopied and Oscar gives the man behind the counter a tract. On the front is a picture of a hand saying “Do you know what your future is?” or something on those lines.. dont quite remember. So this guy seems really happy when we Oscar gives him the tract and he looks up at us and says “Aap padhte ho?” It took us a while before we realized that he was asking whether we were palm readers or fortune tellers. Lol!!
we told him that Jesus knew his future better than any palm reader or fortune cookie. Funny story though.

Pink and more

We finally pulled off OPS! After a month of planning this major pink attack for Oscar, we finally did it. and it was crazy fun! Oscar was there in his pink-ed room, pink balloons and pink flowers and pink satin ribbons tied to his guitars and a basket dressed in pink with all his gifts. And we also wrapped his favorite drink- Pepsi in Pink!!! we wanted to go all the way and get him a pink princess cake but then cake isn’t cake if it isn’t chocolate. Oscar definitely did not see it coming. He walked into his room and stood there trying to figure out what was different and we all came up behind him dressed in pink *well, most of us at least* and he was so shocked and we gave him his basket full of gifts which by the way was a Guitar Tuner.. for fine tuning and the metronome software on a cd. we also gave him some very special music from some of oscar’s favorite bands
For example- Britney- U drive me crazy, Spice Girls- If you wanna be my lover, Backstreet Boys and my favorite Avril Lavigne’s Girlfriend. 😀
and get this.. Shannon knows the words to the Spice Girls song!!!! AAAHhahahahahAHAhahahahahhahahhahaha. Now we know what his favorite band is. Wait til the Worship team hears this about their Worship leader! 😀
Dinner was kebabs.. *mmmm* and Piss-pee. LOL! and the cake.. part of which went on to oscar’s face and in his nose too I think. Ooh and there were the cool candles that wouldn’t stop burning. I want that for my bday!

Oscar gave a little speech at the end of everything. He almost cried I think. and even though we were over two weeks late he was really happy. 🙂

After that we went over to Dalreen’s place to see the baby… who is so so adorable. I’m completely in love with Judah. I love his tiny fingernails the best.

Got home really late but I had to check out this group on FB that Gina was talking about. Its called “I appreciate Christian pick-up Lines” and it has some of the funniest I’ve heard.

Here are some of my favorites-

– “you are so unblemished that i would sacrifice you.”

– “at points in my life i have been referred to as Samson”

– “i believe one of my ribs belongs to you.”

– “i can be your Boaz.”

– “did i just have mud rubbed in my eyes?”

– “now i know why Solomon had 700 wives… Because he never met you.”

– “your hair is like a flock of goats descending from Gilead”

“so, can i clothe you in righteousness?”

– “how many times do I have to walk around you to make you fall for me?”

“how would you like to join my Purpose Driven Life?”

– “let me remove my sandals before I come any closer..”

– “you can lie at my feet..”

– “i’m a proverbs 32 kind of guy and you’re a proverbs 31 kinda woman…”

– “not a big fan of your last name, but thats cool, i can change that.”

– “i sit with my mum at church”

– “i have a bible verse tattoo. its permanent. its also in ancient greek.”

“Me. You. Song of Songs: the remix.”

– “i would have asked you out to dinner, but i just put all my money in the offetory basket.”

– “you float my ark”

I love this the most-
“im interested in full time ministry, and not only that… i also play the guitar.”

oscar and his pink basket. Check out pink desktop behind him.

Aah!! Pink!!!!

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I’m so drained right now. With the youth camp and all the mental and emotional stress that comes with it. I’m really really tired. I dont know where my faith is. I dont know who I’m putting my trust in. everything’s so confusing right now.

I feel alone. Friendless.

So tired.