Night time is becoming distinctly difficult. I cannot seem to escape the multitude of thoughts, emotions etc etc floating around in my head. There is so much that I fear about the future, even though I know that trusting God means giving him everything including those insecurities that in comparison to him are not even big enough to be considered specks of dust.
I miss church. I miss everything about it and a part of me wants to make every decision based on how close I can get to my home church and yet…
I know that there is a time and a season. I just don’t know what my time is or what season I’m in right now. The answer is out there… He knows. I know He knows and I know He cares. So shouldn’t that somehow make everything alright and perfect?
I have these big, giant dreams and then I see myself for who I really am and I find that I fall so short of those dreams. Like an ant looking up at a mountain. I wish I could see myself as capable… that I could look at myself and know that I have what it takes.
I need God. Period.
http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Genesis%2017&version=NASB
read Gen chap 17.
God changed their names so that Abraham and Sarah will change their confession. If they didnt confess with their new names, it wouldn’t have happened. Confess what God tells you.
thats what we learnt at Unleash 2009.
!~*hugs*~!
Dear Christine,
God’s only letting you go through this because He knows that you, Christine, are strong enough to come out of it.
If there’s anything beni’s taught me is that life will never be exactly how we want it, and instead of moping about it, just press forward.
I know you miss you’re old church, but know that there are people here that love you just as much.
And as you clearly know,
there is love as strong as death and jealousy demanding as the grave. And many waters cannot quench this love.
Grasp that and keep living. Hide under the seal that covers your heart. And let that seal become your shield.
I love you,
Nikita