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26
Jul
09

Once he was blind…

A blind man sat on the road to Jericho. He sat there, possibly every single day, hoping that someone would throw a few coins his way. That was his life. Everyday was relatively the same. Black. Dark. Devoid of any light or beauty. Until one day, he heard noises… sounds of a crowd. Since he couldn’t see what was happening, you know being blind and all, he asked someone what was going on. “Jesus is passing by”, he was told. He hasn’t been blind since.

That was my version of Luke 18:35-42. There is much to learn about Jesus from this small passage and as Shyju spoke last night at the healing conference, so much became clear but God still had a word for me specifically, my Rhema.

The blind man’s story could have ended a different way. As strange as this sounds, being blind was comfortable for him. He knew the darkness, he lived in it every day and not to mention, his blindness was his source of income. Calling out to Jesus would mean letting go of the familiar. He would be forced to step out into a new, strange and unfamiliar world, find his place among everybody else. Would he be accepted? How would he support himself? Was he really ready for sight? The future somehow didn’t seem promising.

I thought about why God was telling me this– Did I really want to be healed? Because that meant that I wouldn’t be able to blame everything on some disorder or syndrome or whatever you want to call it. It meant that I would have to take responsibility for my actions. It meant walking without crutches.

Even as Jesus asked the blind man, “What do you want me to do for you?”, the decision was still his to make. Did he want to forever be known as ‘the man who stayed blind’ or did he want to be remembered as ‘that guy who used to be blind but now has perfect 20/20 vision thanks to Jesus’? Because healing isn’t really the problem. He’s called the Healer for a reason.

The real question was in my heart.
Bondage or Freedom?

I made the choice.

23
Jul
09

Where I belong- Cory Asbury

I am my beloved’s and He is mine.
So come into your garden and take delight in me.

21
Jul
09

Dealing with the heart

We’re getting to ready to attend the first of two youth conferences tonight and although we don’t necessarily feel young or youth like, I know that there is something that God still wants to do in my heart. This last weekend has been one of letting go of the past and giving God a chance to come in. Its hard sometimes… this isn’t a well known fact about me but I do like to put up a wall between me and the people I love, just to spare them the grief of it all. Somewhere along the way, God was added to the list too.. But I’m tired of trying to do it all on my own so I’m giving it up and letting go.

16
Jul
09

Stop right there! Drop the phone! I’m not dead.. no need to call.

Is it just me or does that rhyme a little bit? Just me? Yeah I thought so.

I just haven’t been able to sit down and update this blog which I feel terrible about. Before Beni (BB), I had so many things to rant and rave about and now at the BC residence all we do is talk and rant and rave. I have someone to talk to, someone like minded.. (well sort of) and it just sorta took away the need to blog. She cooks and paints and sings too. Where did I find such a gem of a roommate? Why on the internet of course! Where else?!

So, I’ve been around. Got a job which should see me through the summer and the next academic year.  Jobs are so ridiculously important and even though I have spent my whole life terrified and running and hiding from jobs, here I am ready to begin *another* one.

I also had an interview for a second year placement and I sincerely hope that I made a good enough impression to get an email saying that I’m in. Otherwise, I’ll have to keep hunting and frankly, I am just not in the mood. I get it. If you want a placement by Sept, you should apply in April. But what’s messed up is that in April, I was doing my first year placement. So I didnt have the time to go about trying to find a second year placement. So anyway, fingers crossed.

I had a decent conversation with my brother today. It was short but I realised how much I miss him sometimes. We’re not very close, terrible at keeping in touch but I think we’ll always have a place for each other in our lives. Looking at the examples of family “love” around me (read Dad’s crazy family.. I wonder why they even bother), I hope that we wont let trivial things like land, property, money, jewellery etc come in between what we have. That said, Justin if you’re reading this.. remember the house is mine. Always has been, always will be. You’re welcome to come stay though.

Twilight fan fiction keeps me up at night. Twilight fans use the characters from the book and weave their own stories with or without the whole vampire/werewolf stuff. Some of it is really interesting and although picturing Rob Uglyface Pattinson as Edward Cullen gives me a headache, I really like the ones I am currently reading– Wide Awake, Of Gemini and Gypsies, If love could light a candle, The Office and Creature of Habit. I dont know how I keep the storylines for all of these intact in my head. What did I have for lunch yesterday? Not a clue.

I often wonder where I will be at this time next year.. Canada or B’bay? Or maybe Paris? One can dream..
whatever happens… Je ne regrette rien.

14
Jul
09

Quick update

The big move into the city is done, we’re settling in and soon we begin work. What a summer its been.
Sorry for not blogging.. just havent found the inspiration.. Soon though. Soon.




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