Spring is here

This is my first time experiencing Spring. It’s not just something they teach you in school- its REAL!If you grew up in Mumbai or a desert you will understand why Spring seems like a myth.  New leaves, flowers, allergies and rain! its all true!!!! So in keeping with the season, I switched to my new Spring theme. It’s so fresh and green…

… and a little Christmassy for some reason.

I discovered today that I have managed to cover my tracks on the internet. It was starting to get a little freaky especially since I learnt that future employers look you up on google! WHY?!!?! Not to mention the creepy stalkers on the net. So I have made every effort not to let myself be so well known on the internet. I could do with a little less publicity.

I haven’t started working yet. I’m not wasting time.. I still have a lot of school related work to finish, read placement.

On top of all this, my mother occasionally poses questions about when I want to get married and if I found anyone. So finally, unbeknownst to her, I set up a profile on shaadi.com. Hilarious! I have so many people ‘interested’ in me and so now if my mother brings it up I’ll show her my profile! There was even a gora. Lol..

But seriously, my mother is starting to scare me. Last I heard, she wanted to get me married before I turned 24, which is less than 2 years away. And she’s not the only one who is going through this crazy mother phase’ its every *Indian* mother I know. My Plan- go to India in August. Come back to Canada and go into hiding for the next 3 or 4 or maybe 7 years.
Isnt it weird.. When I was 16, all I wanted to do was get married by the time I was 23. But now that I am so close to that age, I feel like the walls are closing in on me. Ugh.

Its not because I havent met the man for me or because I don’t believe in the institution of marriage. I know I am not ready. Far from it. I can barely survive on my own and having another person to love and hold and cherish… Not at this point. Unfortunately, my mother and every other ‘mother’ figure in my life doesnt seem to see that. Marriage is NOT a milestone people. Its not something to tick off my List-of-things-to-do-before-I-die. Marriage is a big fricking responsibility. I have seen and heard so many stories of broken marriages that I am not willing to take the plunge unless its someone I can trust to be responsible enough to take that step with me. I think I am being rational.

Now someone go talk to my mother!

Peace in the Middle East, rain in Spain,
-Enit

So…

…I got my work permit and now I need to start looking for a job and all that. All my mother has to say to that is why didn’t I start on things sooner.

Sometimes people just don’t get how scary and overwhelming this whole thing is. I am not used to having to do everything by myself and its a learning process but its really scary sometimes and I wish someone would understand what that means.

I really thought I was ready for everything that moving here would bring, every battle, every problem, every struggle but now that I am here.. I still feel tiny and incapable of doing what I need to do.

All I am asking is that you understand.
Be my friend. Be here. That’s all I want.

While you were sleeping

So I made the mistake of taking a nap yesterday afternoon that sort of lasted 2 and a half hours longer than I expected it to and now I cant sleep!

I tried everything, counting sheep, counting clouds, houses, apples.. nothing helped. Most of the time I felt suffocated and unbearably warm. So after an hour of tossing and turning in bed at 3 am I finally gave up and came back online.

Have you noticed that everything gets amplified at night? Your breathing seems louder, you hear every sound the house makes, the door has to creak every time you open it.. I’ve never heard it creak in the morning. So weird. Maybe the house hates me.

Anyway, I am still on my Scrubs marathon and I was watching an episode that really made me want to laugh. Is 4.30 am too early to be laughing out loud? Just wondering.

I have a full day of placement (unpaid volunteer work) tomorrow and I have no idea how I am going to stay awake. I really hope that Thea entertains me somehow. I have to get through tomorrow and then I will just come home and sleep. That’s the plan. I can do this.

oh and for How I Met Your Mother fans.. the woman who plays Robin is preg and they’re trying so hard to hide it on the show and its so obvious. Random Useless fact. Oh well.

I might go straighten my hair and start getting dressed for placement even though it is only 4.45 am.

Good day to all you lovely people.
Enit

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Don’t worry your pretty little head. I am still alive and.. um.. blogging?

Since EVERYBODY and their pet mongoose has been asking why I haven’t been blogging… I present another one of my posts!

Just a week left before we break for the summer and I have a truckload of assignments to do. I really hope I am on one of honor roll thingies this time; not that I have worked particularly hard but it’ll make me happy. I like being happy.

In other news, I am broke. So broke that I can’t shop and I have to think really hard before buying lunch at school. Serves me right for wasting all my money. I can’t help wishing that someone would get in touch with me saying that the Canada would like to reward me 10,000 canadian dollars for being so patient with them and all their stupid laws. If only…

I’m still trying to apply for my off-campus work permit. Such roadblocks! I wish they hadn’t changed it to a complete online application. If I had to just send the stupid thing in, it would’ve been done by now. Argh! And it does not help that my parents are frustrated and let all that out on me. I wish this recession would be done already.

I’m hoping to go home in August. No surprises this time.. its just a lot of hard work. Although it was worth it.
But I really need to go home this year and I dont want to go in December because that’s a busy time of the year for a lot of people. Maybe I can go in August AND in December.

Again, I wish Canada would give 10,000 Dollars. *sigh*

In 19 days my new roomie will finally be here. I really don’t know what things will be like. I sincerely hope that at the end of this we will remain friends. Lol.. I am so excited!!!

For your entertainment, I give you my favorite video at present-

Peace.
-Enit