I had a dream.
It was a silly, small dream. A tiny wish.
I dont know where it is anymore.
I seem to be slowly slipping… to a place where dreams don’t come true. Where life is a joke.
I want to get away from all this.
Go back to that dream.
My simple, silly dream.
I had a dream.
No.
I still have a dream.
My church back home is growing and I could not be happier.. well, except if I was there rejoicing with them. I don’t know if I’ll be able to connect like that again. I can safely say that church was home.. is home. I think of love and safety whenever I think of them.
I hope that someday I can go back to be with them. I dont know what God’s plan is for me and I really hope that NLF Lokhandwala is somewhere in that plan
waiting,
Enit
-Dinner at Moxie’s
-’Marie’
-Sweet potato fries
-Oscars
-A.R Rahman at the Oscars
-Italian Pastry
-House music
-Leona Lewis
-White Hot Chocolate (yummy)
-Bowling
-Bubble Tea
-Ballini
-14 oz Steak v/s a plate of ribs
-Apple crumble cheesecake (SO GOOD!!)
-Tips
-a new Keyboard!!!
-Music
-Woodbridge
-Little Italy (College Street)
-Mango Curried Chicken with Coconut rice
-Cappuccino (must be said in Italian accent)
-Princess Fiona and Shrek
-Snow
-Snow storms (I really want to see one)
-food fight!!!
-Lettuce leaf in Beer. Quite a delicacy..
-watching boys make a fool out of themselves.
-Salsa
-no shopping
Did I mention ‘Marie’
Enjoying my week off. 
-Enit
I’m here in the middle of my second semester, a few days away from Reading Week and Block Placement which simply means that I get to spend the next three weeks at home. I’m not sure if its a good thing… Knowing me, I will probably wait till the last minute before I start to completing assignments that I have due the week I get back to school and I have quite a few assignments to hand in when I get back. *sigh* It takes the joy out of having a little holiday.
I have a mid-term tomorrow that I am not really prepared for. It is an open book test which is a relief… I just hope its nothing like those open book tests that Deepak Sir gave us in Wilson. I don’t think anyone knew where to find the answers. Lol.. Anyway, as I was ’studying’ I came upon this one interview. Ramsey Clark, former attorney general of the US talks about US militarism. He said,” Our overriding purpose, from the beginning right through to the present has been world domination — that is to build and maintain the capacity to coerce everybody on the planet: non violently, if possible; and violently; if necessary.” Take time to read it. It made me so mad and I knew inside, that all of it was true. Also, check this website.
The snow was all gone and it made me a little sad, but today there was a snow ’storm’… giant flakes that melted before they hit the ground.. So beautiful. It will be a few years before I get tired of the snow.
OK. I’ve had it.
Everyone is either getting married, having babies or entering into relationships. Enough already!
I could not be happier for you guys.. really.
But do you have to throw it in my face?! Facebook, emails, TV, videos, movies.. all they talk about is love, marriage, children.. blah blah blah.
And I am finally frustrated.
I used to be ok with being single. Really. But that was when I was home and I had things to do on Valentine’s Day like go watch a movie with my friends or go out for lunch or dinner or evade the Shiv Sainiks.. something other than what this Valentine’s weekend is going to be. Spent at home. By myself.
I feel depressed already.
At the risk of sounding like a broken record…Sometimes I wonder if there is someone out there for me. I feel old, bloated and unattractive. I even wonder if I should have held on to those relationships in my past even though I know that were completely wrong for me… just so that I’d have someone to call at the end of the day.
Ugh. I hate what I’ve become. Pathetic.
Men like to talk. They talk, give you advice and tell you how to live your lives. And then you stand back and watch as they act crazier and more stupid than you ever would. I don’t know what it is but I’ve been going through a crazy and wild set of emotions lately and when I see and hear things like this, it just makes me even more mad.I try to remain calm in the midst of all this but sometimes its really impossible. I dont know what to say anymore or who to say it to!
Well, except Sheila.. =) We dont talk often but when we do… Lol. I miss long walks with you Sheee.. :’(
School is going well. There’s a part of me that’s glad that we only meet for class three days a week while on the other handI’m bummed that I dont get to see my friends that often. In class, we talk about topics that really fill you with rage..!! Child abuse, genocide, racism, rape,wars. Sometimes I feel like I need to go curl up in bed and stay there until the world is a better place.
On to more happier topics, I watched ‘He’s just not that into you’. OMG! What an awesome movie! Its been a while since I’ve laughed, *wanted to* cry and ‘awwwd’ all in the same movie.. Although it was supposed to be a typical chick flick, the place was packed with both men and women.. Check it out when you get the chance. I definitely want to go see it again!
I give it a full ten on ten!
I’ll end here.
Happy weekend.
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