For a long time I’ve thought of changing the name of my blog from ‘Contagious Joy’ to something that went with my actual state of mind. I was anything but joyful.
Worried. Stressed. Envious. Jealous. Angry… etc etc. Nothing close to joyful.
But I held on.. Because its not just another name for me. That name is special. Something that God put in my heart before I started this blog. So inspite of me being my crazy self.. I kept the name.
Today, I knew God was filling me with that joy once more. There’s just something about me and Joy. I’m not me without it. That joy I know I wont find in the funniest book or movie or by spending time with my favorite people.
That joy is in that secret place with God. Just the two of you. Its a little hard to find.. especially if you havent been looking for a while.
But its there.
Archive for November, 2007
Whats in a name?
Simple Truths
Doesnt life really put you through too much sometimes?
you wonder if its worth all the trouble.
And then you think of one smile, that last hug and eyes moist with tears and you think maybe things arent that bad after all.
Sometimes I think Im the only one like me.
Confused.
Tired.
Worried.
Aimless.
Bitter.
But then you find that everyone else is pretty much the same too. But they keep moving.
And so should you.
I imagine myself talking to my little girl.. someday. Telling her all that she needs to know to face the world. A part of me is afraid that she’ll make the same mistakes that I did. A part of me is afraid she wont. Mistakes teach you a lot. The most important lesson is that everyone deserves a second chance.
Giving yourself that chance. Letting yourself learn from mistakes.
That takes patience and humility.
Its easy to curse God and give up.
Harder still to wait in silence while He speaks.
Second chances are God’s forte. He always has that basket full. Coz’ he knows how frail and childlike we are.
There we go. Back to the basics.
Children
Be like a child.
What does that really mean?
Does it only refer to trusting the way a child does? Or is it something more?
Like loving the way a child does. No strings attached.
Could there be more?
I dont know.. I need more time with the Father for that.
Thankful for these simple truths.
Enit
Inspiration.. or lack of it.
I really wanted to put up a post. I’ve been trying for the past three days..
I stare at a blank screen for a while.. Something might happen
I visit other blogs. hoping for some inspiration.. No such luck.
and now my tummy hurts.
I hope I get better soon.
The weekend is here.
happy weekend
Enit.
Strangeness.. is that a word?
Today was such a topsy turvy day. Started out like every other but got a little messed up at the end. I couldnt stay home coz’ that would mean sitting in my room crying.. So I went for a walk. For some reason all my walks lead me to Landmark. [At this point I have to add, Gaston thought that the Landmark was the same one close to his place.. a BAR.. and so being the concerned brother that he was he ordered me to go back home at once. That made me laugh so hard] For the less informed, Landmark is my favorite bookstore.. I like to go there once in a while and pick up a book I want to read but cant afford.
I got there and headed straight to the Romance section. *My life is stuck somewhere between the Romance and Comics section* Anyway, I picked up ‘A walk to remember’ and read on for almost two hours. I dont what to say. I think for once I like the movie more than the book. But I havent got to the end yet so ill just wait. But I know now why Mandy seemed so annoying.. The character is so annoying.. Mandy wasnt close. But its still a great story.
This post seems a little confused.
Lunch today was at Noodle Bar. Awesome food. We have to go there once you get back Sheila.. My treat! 
Im supposed to be on a diet. LOL..
My head’s still a little muddled and I have to get to work tomorrow. So thats all for now.
Be good.
Look both ways before crossing the road.
And dont talk to strangers.
unless they offer to take you to Noodle bar and buy you cheesecake afterwards.
somewhere in the middle of here and there,
Enit
Life, Love and Friendship
Its been a while since my last post. And I havent come up with any convincing excuses, so Im not going to bother. 
This past week has been really busy. Dad was home for about 10 days but I didnt get as much time with him as I would’ve wanted. Work and church and my keyboard. Im lost somewhere in the middle of these three.
Yes, My keyboard has finally begun to see the light of day. This time its because I want to. No one’s forcing me. My parents arent threatening me. Nothing..
Something I want to keep with me. I love singing along while Im playing. I always thought that was complicated. To really sing while playing.. But its not that bad.. and Eventually if I get good at this, Maybe Ill pick up the guitar or something. Who knows?
Life seems full of possibilties now.
I watched ‘A Walk to Remember’ again. What a beautiful movie.. Although I thought Mandy Moore was annoying. The movie was just… perfect. Its so important to just wait sometimes. Love will find you in the most unexpected places.
‘A Walk to Remember’ is going down on my list of books.
Speaking of lists, Im going to sit down and make a list of everything I want to do or see in my life. Lol.. Maybe the movie inspired me more than I thought it did. And I believe that desires don’t go unfulfilled when you partner with a Father like mine.
Like the way he brings old friends back. The right time. Perfect way.
Contemplating the beauty of life, love and friendship,
Enit
My blog seems to have become stagnant .. mostly coz’ the only thing I’ve been doing is changing the theme..Sometimes I wish I could do that to my room. I get bored very easily. Which is another reason I choose to remain single. I dont want anyone blaming me for getting disinterested four months into the relationship.
Relationships have been a hot topic these past couple of weeks. (I’ve lost some weight, so people arent talking about that much) But look around. *Almost* everyone is getting into one.. without thinking of the consequences. Without thinking of what it could lead to in a couple of years. I know that at the moment it seems like the best thing to do. But then all the unnecessary lying and the hiding and the eating out and getting fat. Do you really need all that? DO you have the money??!!!! Relationships are an expensive investment and if you’re with someone like me then expect that I’m gonna ask for gifts at the drop of a hat and you cant get away with a card or flowers. Send them to your mom. I want clothes, shoes, bags, jewellery, books!!! Hopefully with that I’ve scared some people away. *I will not mention any names*
Moving on to new topic…
I went street shopping yesterday with Oscar. And I came home with pretty good bargains. My new ‘genie’ pants are really cute. my white flip flops are neat too. Just one problem.. the other sandals I bought.. well, I was so busy bringing the rates down to like 100 bucks that I didnt check what he had given me until after I got home two hours later and thats when Mom noticed that the shoes he had given me were both of the same feet! Sheesh. I know he wasnt trying to con me on purpose.. He’ll never be able to sell the other pair until I go back there and get an exchange done. Aiyoo!! Me and shopping usually never go well together!!Especially street shopping.
And oscar got a compliment yesterday.. One guy at some shop told him that He bargains ‘better’ than girls. Read He’s more chindi. LOL
Its the middle of November and its still so darn hot!
So…
I should know who I am by now
I walk the record stand somehow
Thinkin’ of winter
The name is the splinter inside me
While I wait
And I remember the sound
Of your November downtown
And I remember the truth
A warm December with you
But I don’t have to make this mistake
And I don’t have to stay this way
If only I would wake
The walk has all been cleared by now
Your voice is all I hear somehow
Calling out winter
Your voice is the splinter inside me
While I wait
And I remember the sound
Of your November downtown
And I remember the truth
A warm December with you
But I don’t have to make this mistake
And I don’t have to stay this way
If only I would wake
I could have lost myself
In rough blue waters in your eyes
And I miss you still
Oh I remember the sound
Of your November downtown
And I remember the truth
A warm December with you
But I don’t have to make this mistake
And I don’t have to stay this way
If only I would wake
‘Winter’ by Joshua Radin.
My way of ushering Winter in.
New theme
Just trying out a new theme.. Looks pretty good. But the sidebar widgets are at the bottom. Shouldnt they be called bottom widgets or something?
Anyway, If I dont like it, I’ll go back to the old one.
I dont even know why I’m telling you this.
Oh well.
Dancing with Daddy
Childhood secrets all forgotten
Innocence laid aside
Responsibilty upon young shoulders
Don’t we all grow up too fast
Have no time to laze around
to play dress up
to read a book
to take a walk
or paint a dream
Why do we rush through life
take it one day at a time
Make time to lie in the fields
smell the roses
taste the dew
Dance to the song in your heart
Worries all forgotten
No memory of pain
Joy overflowing
A fresh start
Dancing with Daddy
not a care in the world
Wrapped in the arms of my father
safe and secure
Dancing with Daddy
Thats what I want
To dance with my father
until a new day dawns
I’m back
It’s been a while since my last post. Lets see… What has happened?
My mom’s back. The house looks cleaner and smells nicer. All my clothes are washed and ironed. It’s nice to have mom home again. Although it sounds more like she’s a maid. But it’s nice to have someone to talk to about stuff… not that we really talk about me or things that interest me. It’s mostly her calling me fat and me throwing things at her.
But what I’m really happy about is the breakfast I get before I leave for her. I could never wake up early enough to prepare breakfast or pack a lunch which meant that for the most of the last few weeks I have been staying hungry till 2 in the afternoon…the primary reason that my tummy hurts a lot these days.
But that’s why God made mommies… to wake you up with a nice bowl of porridge. *Corn makes you fat. Oats are high in fiber and non-fattening*. She even packs me lunch. Sometimes if I can’t take it with me to the office she actually comes by around lunch time to give me my lunch.
I love moms.
Other than that, today is the first day of the Ram Babu crusades. I am so excited. The next three days are going to be packed to the full. I don’t think I have made enough time in my schedule to breathe. My main concern is getting to work on Monday morning. It doesn’t seem too likely right now. I pray that this weekend would be more refreshing than tiring.
So since I’m not going to be here for a while… I’ll leave you all with a blog that will keep you busy and entertained till I get back. He’s a software engineer with an awesome sense of humour. Indians are the funniest people I know.
Have a great weekend.
I know I will.
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